Thursday, March 28, 2013

What It's All About

Today I have had an epiphany of sorts.  The last several months I have been living in the haze of really-really-bad-morning-sickness.   Pure survival mode (and there is no energy for blogging in survival mode).

But the last few weeks I have gradually begun to feel better, eat more, enjoy being out and about, and had the energy to get things done.

And it's interesting because this coming out of the haze has coincided with the end of Winter.  The days are getting longer, the dreary weather is beginning to give way to sunshine and warm afternoons.  The birds are singing, nests are appearing, flowers are blooming.  It's Spring.

And guess what?  It's Easter!

You see, this is all what Easter is all about.  New life.  New beginnings.  Re-birth.  The end is not really the end, but the beginning.

A couple nights ago, Billy and I talked about a loved one who does not know this.  He doesn't see. And he doesn't understand our upside-down life.  He doesn't get why we aren't interested in the American dream.  He is worried for us, for our children because of our career and finance decisions.

He doesn't believe, as we do, that this world is only the beginning.  He is living for here and we are living for there.

Here is dreary and dark and often hard.  But there is going to be beauty like we've never known.  And because we know that, we cannot help but live differently here.  Because all that surrounds, all that we see, will one day be dust... just dust.

The only things - the ONLY things - we will take are souls.  And that is what Easter is all about.  New life.  New beginnings.  Re-birth.  Hope.  All ours for the taking.

Tuesday, March 19, 2013

Attachment Update: 2 Years Post-Adoption

Liam arrived 2 years ago today.  Our relationship has had its ups and downs since then.

And the honest truth?  We have yet to arrive.

A fellow blogger wrote a post here about her son, adopted from the same orphanage actually.  I couldn't say it better so please go read "Someday Up From Underwater" to better understand where we are at with Liam these days.