Thursday, September 27, 2012

Thankful Thursday

1. Cooking with Shep
2. Time alone in Starbucks
3. Nap today when I really needed it
4. News of two friends pregnant
5. Christmas and birthday shopping for the boys

Monday, September 24, 2012

Natural Playground

At a local children's nature museum, we discovered they have built a new "Natural Playground." How genius is that?! 

Shep spent 2 hours pushing around a little Radio Flyer wheelbarrow (yep, already ordered him one for Christmas) collecting all sorts of things.  And Liam enjoyed the big scary woods a little closer to the safety of Mama.  

I told Billy about it and we have now added "Natural Playground" to our list of home projects.  I would much rather stare out the window at functional natural beauty than a collection of plastic playsets, amen?!  

Thursday, September 20, 2012

Thankful Thursday

1. Snuggling with Liam
2. Watching healing take place in a client tonight
3. Wearing a pretty dress
4. Worshipping with Billy
5. Summer tan lingers

Tuesday, September 18, 2012

Advice to Myself on Diagnosis Day

This is a beautiful video compiled of answers parents of children with special needs gave when asked, "what would you have told yourself on the day of your child's diagnosis?"

And it got me thinking.  I remember so clearly the day we first heard of a baby boy in Ethiopia who had "some delays."  We had no idea when we first started this journey how extensive those delays would be and how much they would impact our daily lives.  

I remember the day Billy called from Ethiopia before bringing Liam home and telling me the embassy official had asked him, "Are you aware this child is mentally retarded?"  It was the first time we had heard our child described with those words and it was terrifying.  I remember sobbing to my Mom and asking her, "Are we making a terrible mistake?"

I remember the neurologist's words at Liam's first visit.  She had so little hope for him.  I could not get from her office to the restroom fast enough, blinded by tears, bumping my double stroller into every doorway in between.  For awhile it felt like I would cry for Liam forever.

But what I have sense come to know - I mean really KNOW, like deep down in my marrow know in a way I never knew before - is that my God provides hope even in the midst of so much pain.

I still cry regularly for Liam.  I will always be sad for the things he cannot do.  But even in the midst of the sadness and fears for Liam's future, I have hope.  

Hope that God has a plan for Liam's life.  
Hope that there is purpose in his disability.  
Hope that there will come a day when all these light and momentary troubles will matter no more, when my tears for him will be wiped away and Liam will stand shining before a God who sees him as perfect in every way.

What I would have told myself on diagnosis day?  
Yes, you are doing the right thing.  Enter into the fear and the pain.  Do not be afraid, for your God goes with you.

Thursday, September 13, 2012

Thankful Thursday

1. Quiet house at nap time
2. Sunshine after the rain
3. Mild summer
4. Sticking to my new exercise routine
5. Planning Mom's birthday party

Sunday, September 9, 2012

Thursday, September 6, 2012

Thankful Thursday

I read a life-changing book last winter and have been making my list of 1,000 gifts ever since.  I am starting a new weekly post called Thankful Thursday.  It will be a way for me to share with you some of my daily blessings.  

I will simply share a few each week and I hope this blesses you as much as it has me.  Such a simple spiritual practice, yet so rich.  Here you are, a few of my gifts, shared with you today:

1. two days in a row to be a stay-at-home mom all day
2. Shep's pretend birthday parties
3. seeing the Ethiopian checker at Wal-Mart again and her words of encouragement to me 
4. a cheeseburger, fries, & frosty from Wendy's
5. Liam getting around the children's museum in his walker, rather than a stroller

Wednesday, September 5, 2012

Sunday, September 2, 2012

Confessions of a Mom

I can't do it all. And neither can you (as far as I know). I thought someone besides me might need to hear that today.

So, let's get to it.


Clean my own house.

Get down on the floor and just play with my kids very often.

Work with Liam on therapy stuff as much as I should.

Wear make-up every day.

Ever iron.

Cook from scratch often.

Spend time with God every day.

Do playdates on a regular basis.

Wash or clean my car.  

Spend much time with friends (in person or over the phone).

Have people over often.

Cook every night.

Read many books.


Eat too much sugar.

Admit that my favorite time of the day is after my kids are in bed.

Use the TV as a babysitter when I need to get things done (or when I'm just tired).

Stay up too late pinning on Pinterest and blog-surfing, then regret it the next day.

Let my babies/toddlers cry it out.

Lose patience with my kids and treat them harshly.

Feed my kids sugar.

Eat emotionally.

Spank my kids.

There you have it.  I feel a little exposed.  But that's probably a good thing every now and then.  

I hope this post helps you to rest in God's grace today, knowing that His power is made perfect in your weakness.